A letter for an e-bottle ;)

I was not the most fortunate lad in the world, for it has given me so little,  yet so much.

Overtime I’ve come to appreciate the little things I get in life, orphaned from society, alienated from my humanity. In my loss I return to simplicity.

My thanks I’d like to give to my mother who raised me by herself and found the time to nurture me into an educated civilized person despite the hardships and sleepless nights and struggles for the past 20 or so years, thinking of her I find that struggle is irrelevant in the face of purpose and reason.

I’m grateful to the friends who I had and never have those who played a part of my life, no matter how small, and forgive me if I ever left for I never learned to be a friend myself. I’ve been moulded by loss and betrayal so many times I have forsaken true values such as trust, respect, and benevolence; how ever gone I may be once a while I remember what I truly long to find in others… the very values of trust, respect, and benevolence I aim to grow within me.

My wants and dreams may be unreachable however they are simple, as I’d love to be healthy, sporty, full of joy, and dance. as strange it may sound I always was fascinated by a the Russian-Orthodox Christianity that believed in Jesus’ teachings of the good without the intimidation. by love and not hatred, united by only our goodness.

If I were to ever become a politician or in place of power, I would truly promote and hire people based on their good-will and intelligence but never on their experience; college drop outs are my personal favourite kind of people.

I am well aware of my limitations, my humility and lack of confidence. I do not know what good I bring to the world, most of my time I prefer to keep to myself and around others I’m easily hurt and quickly intimidated. some others are considerate of that especially of my friendship is in one way or another valuable to them. but others just enjoy eating of at other people.

Quotes teach me a lot of forgotten wisdom and I drift through life as a by stander because I as one girl once said words I always remember “I’m an idiot who does not know the meaning of life” the hurtful words  only hurt when they are right.

I’m going to start writing more senseless things gradually. hopefully. perhaps I’ll get some friends and feel less of a by stander?.  by all means take this as an conversation opening letter. comment your thoughts freely and share your experience! post your personal online diary links! I will approve those so long they are not spam. 🙂

 

 

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15 Life Lessons I Learned by 50 (That I Wouldn’t Have Believed in My 20s)

Here are some lessons I’ve learned during my half century on this planet:

  1. Be kind. The benefits of being kind–or at the very least courteous–far outweigh the effort you put in. Do random acts of kindness. Compliment someone. If a retail or food-service worker makes a mistake, be understanding and patient. Kind people live longer than unkind people.
  2. I know myself better than anyone else. I don’t let anyone else’s opinions control what I do, what I wear, or what I say. Other people’s opinions are suggestions–take them or leave them.
  3. Everyone else is as worried and insecure as you are. Some people just hide it better. It doesn’t mean that they are any smarter or better than you.
  4. Laugh it off. If you make a mistake, fall down, or do something dumb, just laugh it off. Other people (and you) will forget it a lot faster if you just let it roll off your back. EVERYONE makes dumb mistakes. Everyone. You aren’t alone, and you aren’t the biggest idiot in the world. Give yourself a break.
  5. “Fitting in” is highly overrated. Be you. Confidence is sexy. Besides, great leaders didn’t get where they are by following the crowd.
  6. Don’t stay in a bad relationship, even if it’s “for the kids.” Oftentimes, kids really thrive outside the bounds of a toxic relationship.
  7. It’s just stuff. Sure, stuff gets broken–oftentimes accidentally by people you love–and that’s annoying. But your stuff can be replaced. You can never erase the hurtful words you say to the person you love, because they broke your stuff. Stuff is never, ever as important as those you love.
  8. You’re probably a lot smarter than you give yourself credit for being.
  9. Don’t judge. You don’t know all the facts. That lady speeding down the road with her toddler unbuckled in the back seat may be panicked, heading for the hospital for an emergency that you can’t see. That “big kid” having a “tantrum” in the store may be on the autism spectrum, and is having a melt down, which he/she hates as much as you do. The fat lady in the bikini may have lost 100 lbs so far, and she’s pretty darn proud of what she’s done. Don’t shame people for smoking, drinking, or being fat. We all have our faults and bad habits. As a pretty famous guy is alleged to have said, “let he who is without sin cast the first stone.”
  10. Never lose your inner child. Dance. Sing. Skip. Tell poop jokes (not to strangers, though). Go down the slide. Bounce at the bouncy house, if the attendant says adults are welcome. This is an advantage to being older. When you’re 20, people often think you’re “too old” to do these things, but when a 50-something does them, it’s charming. And if people think it’s dumb, screw them. See #2 above.
  11. Don’t make major life decisions to please other people. Maybe your parents expect you to go to college, but you just want to go to trade school and become an auto mechanic, because that’s where your heart is. Or maybe (as in my case) your parents don’t want you to go to college, but you really want to be an attorney. Live life for YOU. The world needs good auto mechanics and good attorneys. It’ll all work out.
  12. Don’t beat yourself up about stuff. Do what you can to fix your mistakes, then move on. Guilt is only good for pushing you toward making things right again. After that, it becomes shame, and shame is a toxic substance which will eat you up inside. Same for worry.
  13. Enjoy life. Literally, stop to smell and admire the flowers. Wonder. Smile at strangers and see how many you can get to smile back. Have fun.
  14. Life goes by really, really fast. Live each day so that, at the end, you’re reveling in how amazing your life was, not regretting all the things you did or didn’t do.
  15. Life is better after 50.
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The 3 hard choices in my life.

I had to make 3 difficult choices in my life.

The first one is the choice between friendship and stuff (there is no Wrong choice here. But friendship will make you suffer because people will use you, and stuff will make you suffer because people will leave you).

 

The second one is the choice between the one you love, and the one that loves you . There’s always one that will love more. (No choice is wrong, but if you choose to love more you will suffer never getting the same reply, if you choose to be loved by more you will carry the burden of faking your passions a small price to pay for serenity).

 

The third choice is the choice of moral principles VS happiness (the obvious and easy choice is to ignore what makes you human and be a yes man to whatever job pays more or whatever most people say is true or good, the hard choice very few of us choose is the path of speaking up your moral principles where the definition of you creates your environment, chooses your friends, and builds your self-respect and kindness, a choice you will never be thanked for in a capitalist-democracy.

Suicide note with no date.

Why there is so much hatred? because I’m just as good as castrated, but even worse…
In all rationale it seems that sexuality is completely omitted from my life at this stage, I do not recognize my gender, I do not want to have any sexual activity and even when I do I am never satisfied, therefore it is not even worth the effort to consider it the best I can do is avoid the urges and hope that as I get older the less I want it or to otherwise simply surgically remove it altogether.
The life of a circumcised male (where the procedure effectively delivered it’s intended damage) is a being that has no capability of sexual or emotional empathy a hollowed good for nothing do-it species similar to a mule (it does not reproduce, it is obedient, and it has capability of achieving self-characterization because it’s very purpose of life is taken away).
So why do we exist? why have I not killed myself yet?
there’s a simple answer to that, because I’m still serving someone… like a parent, or close friends. but in some moments I do have this realization the moment I don’t have someone else to live for…. I cannot live for myself… I seek no reason I simply await my death to relieve me from suffering.
This isn’t poetry, this isn’t some fan-fiction writing, it is more of a suicide note without an expiration date. should I ever die.. you will know that my life was taken away the moment I was sexually mutilated. what am I now is but a walking corpse of nothing.
I know many of you may find this morbid, But I also know many of you may find themselves in this situation…
What is the purpose of life? is to enjoy it and live it to the fullest, that is what I will never attain, that is what non of the circumcised males will ever attain.
The horrible thing about this world that a majority of circumcised men seek to compensate with their sexual disability by violence, ignorance, justification to circumcise others, and until all circumcised men realize and confront their fears, this havoc will go on running.
What was once a salve mark, a rape-punishment, and later a sacrifice to Satan (A Jewish god). has now become a serious epidemic of misery, the spread of hatred, the reason for wars, and a political statement by the Zionist order, to mark their rule over your most sacred territory, that you are not the owner of your body, sex, or soul. this is property of Zion.
That’s why I want to die.

Nissan LEAF – Driver’s Review

I have learned tremendous amount of the technology enough to appreciate and give Kudos to those who dare make the brave “leap of faith” into Electric Drive. There’s certainly a change to the better with electric driving. Amount things I recently noticed are as follows.

1. You don’t drive the car, you ride the car.
The greatest difference comes from the realization that you are no longer the total ruler of the drive. But rather seeking a 2 way agreement between you and your car. Similar to horse riding, and I’ll explain why I think that way about my LEAF
The LEAF has a mind of its own. It decides how to do things when in eco mode when it comes to acceleration and turning.


And overtime your car will reflect your milage guesstimate based on how nice you treat her (therefore do well by her and she will do well by you, and she will also tell you that by showing the numbers and bar charts) using modes as auto-cruising on highways and B-mode driving in heavy traffic teach you to be more mindful about your car and your drive style than ever before, in a way it points out your flaws and teaches you driving manners. To be less of a stress inducer surprise driver and more of the Zen driver who enjoys the sensation of “gliding” the road quietly.

2. The quiet
The days of playing music to ignore the motor is gone. The engine sounds very pleasing and futurestic, if you get off ECO. And go ludacrice driving the engine revs sound very funny similar to a chorus of high pitched frequencies that synchronously increase in number the higher the RPM. (I wonder if the sound is different with AC Asynchronous motors as mine is a Synchronous motor). For those leading busy stressful lives and meditating / quiet time is king. Electric Vehicles will being you driving and meditating together. It is polite to always choose slower lanes if you’re driving electric unless you want to race through cars.

3. Hyperspeed
The favourite thing professional drivers guage in a car are Top speed, Acceleration, and Handling.

Top speed sucks, I tell you that upfront this is a commute vehicle with 80 Mph not designed to win drag races.

The Acceleration is out of this world fantastic, with Full power to engines LEAF (which is a smaller 80Kw AC Synchronous Motor) can hit 0-60 is bolt of 8 seconds. To put this in perspective this is almost identical to driving an 8 Cylindar Ford Mustang 2010.

Handling is good
Handling depends on propelling wheels, center of gravity and other bells and whistles. Whilte AWD vehicles out there ominate the curve handling power, the LEAF does not have AWD, She is an FR drive which makes it tricky on turn-breaking and accelerating, it’s one advantage in handling is the low center of gravity thanks to the battery bed, that helps tackle moderate turns at about 15 mph over the recommended speed easily.

The Family
the LEAF is HUGE!
in the spectrum of electric vehicles’ sizes weight is a big big deal, and most people want to buy a car that can fit the whole family. Nissan tackled that challenge with a date (Although not as well as Tesla Model S, sorry folks) You can fit 5, 6ft tall guys in the vehicle and a trunk enough to fit 3 mid size travel luggage bags. The folding seats allow you to expand that storage and throw in a couple bycicles or sport equipment for park events.

 

OnePlus – Review

I have nothing but awesome experience with my OnePlus 5 phone. the Pros are the specs and the performance (beats any flagship today even iphone X looks like a joke), the Cons, missing the bells and whistles Samsung has such as Magnetic Payment (ability to pay on any credit card machine “patented tech”) and the Barometer (%99 of people don’t use that I use it to measure atmospheric pressure to anticipate headaches. (you can do that with internet-based service anyway)
But guys seriously. 8-core 2Ghz Processor, 1GB discreet GPU, 8GB DDR4L (L for low energy) RAM, 128GB NAND Flash memory <— I shit you not)…. for ~$550 USD??!!! Shutup and take my money!

Repairs

I always say a mirror is a mirror. It can be very expensive but that doesn’t make it do what it shouldnt do…

OnePlus5 replacement screen is ordered online and swapping it is not hard (in comparison to the impossible iPhone X torture)

They already use latest Gorilla Corning Glass that exists in flagship phones. And comes pre-equiped with a screensheild just for that occasion too…

For people who are used to a phone being a Nokia 3310 (The Chuck Norris of phones) OnePlus ordered a few cases from Dupont Kevlar Karbon Fiber (5 times more powerful than steel and I think can even stop bullets!) That has raised edges to minimize damage of corner and edge drops (Gorilla Glass weakness points)

It costs a little bit more than your average phone case but the gift of Karbon Fiber that it can be so thin, light and strong together that I’m surprised Apple didn’t invest in them.

The Virtues of Continues Improvement

In a video called “Why You Need to Fail”, CD Baby founder Derek Sivers describes the surprising results of a ceramics class.

On the first day, the instructor announced to his class that the students would be divided into two groups. Half of the students would only need to make one clay pot each during the semester. Their grades would depend on the perfection of that solitary pot.

The other half of the class would be graded simply by the weight of the pots they made during the semester. If they made 50 pounds of pots or more, they’d get an A. Forty pounds would earn a B; 30 pounds, a C; and so on. What they actually made was irrelevant. The instructor said he wouldn’t even look at their pots. He would simply bring his bathroom scale to the final day of class and weigh the students’ work.

At the end of the semester, an interesting thing had occurred. Outside observers of the class noted that the highest-quality pots had been made by the “quantity group”. They had spent the entire semester working as quickly as they could to make pots. Sometimes they succeeded, and sometimes they failed. Which each iteration, each experiment, they learned. From that learning they became better able to achieve the end goal: making high-quality clay pots.

By contrast, the group that made one object didn’t have the benefit of those failed iterations and didn’t learn quickly enough to perform at the same level as the “Quantity group”. They had spent their semester theorizing about what would make a “grade-A” clay pot but didn’t have the experience to execute that grandiose vision.

 

 

NSFW – Scientifically backed up document on circumcission

This is the second in a series of informational essays by Marilyn Milos, RN, founder of the National Organization of Circumcision Information Resource Centers and a pioneer in the movement to end the forced circumcision of boys in the United States. Marilyn is also a member of Intact America’s Steering Committee. If you have a question you’d like Marilyn to address, send us an email!

Despite the popular myth that the foreskin (or prepuce) is “just a flap of skin,” it is actually a complex structure that plays a significant role in both penile protection and sensual/sexual enjoyment. Identified by Canadian anatomist Dr. John R. Taylor, the ridged band encircling the inner layer of the foreskin, has 12 to 14 ridges and tens of thousands of specialized erogenous nerves that let a man know what his penis is feeling and where he is in relation to the ejaculatory threshold. When the foreskin is retracted, the main part of the ridged band lies across the top and sides of the shaft of the penis.

Stretching of the accordion-like ridged band triggers important sexual reflexes and erogenous sensation. Without it, men complain of premature ejaculation because they lack nerves to tell the brain specifically what the penis is feeling. CJ Fallier wrote in 1970, “The fundamental biological sexual act becomes, for the circumcised male, simply a satisfaction of an urge and not the refined sensory experience it was meant to be.”

The ridged band is contiguous with the frenulum, a sensitive mucosal membrane on the underside of the penis that attaches the foreskin to the glans (head of the penis). After retraction, the penile frenulum pulls the foreskin back to its forward position, covering and protecting the glans penis and urinary meatus (opening). When a male has been circumcised, whatever remains of the frenular tissue becomes the most sensitive part of his penis.

Structurally, the penis is highly integrated and, according to Dr. Taylor, “The glans, foreskin, and skin of the penile shaft function as a single unit, not as a collection of separate parts with entirely different functions. The functions of the glans and foreskin are similar, and overlapping, but come fully into their own at different times during intercourse.”

—Marilyn Milos, RN

For more information about the foreskin, please download our Foreskin Facts information sheet and share it with your friends, doctors, and anyone you know who may have a baby on the way or is thinking about becoming a parent.

Solution: Lastpass does not work on Firefox ESR

Prologue:

After spending a couple days talking to Lastpass support 2nd tier. we rooted down to the issue that DebianOS has an outdated Firefox-ESR version within their latest distribution (8 Jessie)

Currently Lastpass does not work on the old Firefox ESR 45, Updating to Firefox ESR 52 resolves the issue but it’s a tricky manual update to do so,  here are the steps.

Steps:

  • Download the latest ESR release from this directory: https://ftp.mozilla.org/pub/firefox/releases/
  • Unpack the release
  • Copy the firefox folder contents to the following directories.
    • /usr/lib/firefox (Overwrite all)
    • /usr/lib/firefox-esr (Overwrite all)
  • Do the following in /usr/lib/firefox-esr
    • Delete firefox-esr
    • Copy firefox-bin to the same location and rename it to firefox-esr
  • Start Firefox ESR through the desktop shortcut.
  • Check About Firefox to confirm version change.

 

Note: to undo the changes above simply re-install Firefox-ESR through Aptitude or a package manager.


Write your comments below and let others know if this solution works or if you need any help!

Debian OS – Simple Backup

BACKUP STEPS


1. APT Packages list

dpkg --get-selections > package_list

This creates a text file (package_list) with all package installed in your system. You can edit the file if you want to delete some packages.
TIP: for Offline installations you can use APTonCD to back up the actual packages. (they can be outdated and won’t auto-update!)

2. Settings
REPO Sources
/etc/apt/sources.list
PPA Sources
/etc/apt/sources.list.d
Partition Mount Settings (Advanced)
/etc/fstab
Driver Exclusion Settings (Advanced)
/etc/modprobe.d

3. Personal Data
Backup your home folder
/home/[username]

Notice: All application settings are hidden folders/files in your user’s home folder, maybe you want to select what settings you want to restore.


RESTORE STEPS


1. Install your Debian OS

2. Restore repositories (/etc/apt/sources.list file and /etc/apt/sources.list.d/ folder).

3. Import your package list

apt-get update && sudo apt-get upgrade
dpkg –clear-selections
dpkg –set-selections < package_list

4. Install your selected packages

sudo apt-get update && sudo apt-get dselect-upgrade
sudo apt-get autoremove

Special thanks to original poster is Ilazgo as a comment: https://askubuntu.com/a/243408/340580