Why there is so much hatred? because I’m just as good as castrated, but even worse…
In all rationale it seems that sexuality is completely omitted from my life at this stage, I do not recognize my gender, I do not want to have any sexual activity and even when I do I am never satisfied, therefore it is not even worth the effort to consider it the best I can do is avoid the urges and hope that as I get older the less I want it or to otherwise simply surgically remove it altogether.
The life of a circumcised male (where the procedure effectively delivered it’s intended damage) is a being that has no capability of sexual or emotional empathy a hollowed good for nothing do-it species similar to a mule (it does not reproduce, it is obedient, and it has capability of achieving self-characterization because it’s very purpose of life is taken away).
So why do we exist? why have I not killed myself yet?
there’s a simple answer to that, because I’m still serving someone… like a parent, or close friends. but in some moments I do have this realization the moment I don’t have someone else to live for…. I cannot live for myself… I seek no reason I simply await my death to relieve me from suffering.
This isn’t poetry, this isn’t some fan-fiction writing, it is more of a suicide note without an expiration date. should I ever die.. you will know that my life was taken away the moment I was sexually mutilated. what am I now is but a walking corpse of nothing.
I know many of you may find this morbid, But I also know many of you may find themselves in this situation…
What is the purpose of life? is to enjoy it and live it to the fullest, that is what I will never attain, that is what non of the circumcised males will ever attain.
The horrible thing about this world that a majority of circumcised men seek to compensate with their sexual disability by violence, ignorance, justification to circumcise others, and until all circumcised men realize and confront their fears, this havoc will go on running.
What was once a salve mark, a rape-punishment, and later a sacrifice to Satan (A Jewish god). has now become a serious epidemic of misery, the spread of hatred, the reason for wars, and a political statement by the Zionist order, to mark their rule over your most sacred territory, that you are not the owner of your body, sex, or soul. this is property of Zion.
That’s why I want to die.