The 3 hard choices in my life.

I had to make 3 difficult choices in my life.

The first one is the choice between friendship and stuff (there is no Wrong choice here. But friendship will make you suffer because people will use you, and stuff will make you suffer because people will leave you).


The second one is the choice between the one you love, and the one that loves you . There’s always one that will love more. (No choice is wrong, but if you choose to love more you will suffer never getting the same reply, if you choose to be loved by more you will carry the burden of faking your passions a small price to pay for serenity).


The third choice is the choice of moral principles VS happiness (the obvious and easy choice is to ignore what makes you human and be a yes man to whatever job pays more or whatever most people say is true or good, the hard choice very few of us choose is the path of speaking up your moral principles where the definition of you creates your environment, chooses your friends, and builds your self-respect and kindness, a choice you will never be thanked for in a capitalist-democracy.


Suicide note with no date.

Why there is so much hatred? because I’m just as good as castrated, but even worse…
In all rationale it seems that sexuality is completely omitted from my life at this stage, I do not recognize my gender, I do not want to have any sexual activity and even when I do I am never satisfied, therefore it is not even worth the effort to consider it the best I can do is avoid the urges and hope that as I get older the less I want it or to otherwise simply surgically remove it altogether.
The life of a circumcised male (where the procedure effectively delivered it’s intended damage) is a being that has no capability of sexual or emotional empathy a hollowed good for nothing do-it species similar to a mule (it does not reproduce, it is obedient, and it has capability of achieving self-characterization because it’s very purpose of life is taken away).
So why do we exist? why have I not killed myself yet?
there’s a simple answer to that, becase I’m still serving someone… like a parent, or close friends. but in some moments I do have this realization the moment I don’t have someone else to live for…. I cannot live for myself… I seek no reason I simply await my death to relieve me from suffering.
This isn’t poetry, this isn’t some fan-fiction writing, it is more of a suicide note without an expiration date. should I ever die.. you will know that my life was taken away the moment I was sexually mutilated. what am I now is but a walking corpse of nothing.
I know many of you may find this morbid, But I also know many of you may find themselves in this situation…
What is the purpose of life? is to enjoy it and live it to the fullest, that is what I will never attain, that is what non of the circumcised males will ever attain.
The horrible thing about this world that a majority of circumcised men seek to compensate with their sexual disability by violence, ignorance, justification to circumcise others, and until all circumcised men realize and confront their fears, this havoc will go on running.
What was once a salve mark, a rape-punishment, and later a sacrifice to Satan (A jewish god). has now become a serious epidimic of misery, the spread of hatred, the reason for wars, and a political statement by the Zionist order, to mark their rule over your most sacred territory, that you are not the owner of your body, sex, or soul. this is property of Zion.
That’s why I want to die.

Nissan LEAF – Driver’s Review

I have learned tremendous amount of the technology enough to appreciate and give Kudos to those who dare make the brave “leap of faith” into Electric Drive. There’s certainly a change to the better with electric driving. Amount things I recently noticed are as follows.

1. You don’t drive the car, you ride the car.
The greatest difference comes from the realization that you are no longer the total ruler of the drive. But rather seeking a 2 way agreement between you and your car. Similar to horse riding, and I’ll explain why I think that way about my LEAF
The LEAF has a mind of its own. It decides how to do things when in eco mode when it comes to acceleration and turning.

And overtime your car will reflect your milage guesstimate based on how nice you treat her (therefore do well by her and she will do well by you, and she will also tell you that by showing the numbers and bar charts) using modes as auto-cruising on highways and B-mode driving in heavy traffic teach you to be more mindful about your car and your drive style than ever before, in a way it points out your flaws and teaches you driving manners. To be less of a stress inducer surprise driver and more of the Zen driver who enjoys the sensation of “gliding” the road quietly.

2. The quiet
The days of playing music to ignore the motor is gone. The engine sounds very pleasing and futurestic, if you get off ECO. And go ludacrice driving the engine revs sound very funny similar to a chorus of high pitched frequencies that synchronously increase in number the higher the RPM. (I wonder if the sound is different with AC Asynchronous motors as mine is a Synchronous motor). For those leading busy stressful lives and meditating / quiet time is king. Electric Vehicles will being you driving and meditating together. It is polite to always choose slower lanes if you’re driving electric unless you want to race through cars.

3. Hyperspeed
The favourite thing professional drivers guage in a car are Top speed, Acceleration, and Handling.

Top speed sucks, I tell you that upfront this is a commute vehicle with 80 Mph not designed to win drag races.

The Acceleration is out of this world fantastic, with Full power to engines LEAF (which is a smaller 80Kw AC Synchronous Motor) can hit 0-60 is bolt of 8 seconds. To put this in perspective this is almost identical to driving an 8 Cylindar Ford Mustang 2010.

Handling is good
Handling depends on propelling wheels, center of gravity and other bells and whistles. Whilte AWD vehicles out there ominate the curve handling power, the LEAF does not have AWD, She is an FR drive which makes it tricky on turn-breaking and accelerating, it’s one advantage in handling is the low center of gravity thanks to the battery bed, that helps tackle moderate turns at about 15 mph over the recommended speed easily.

The Family
the LEAF is HUGE!
in the spectrum of electric vehicles’ sizes weight is a big big deal, and most people want to buy a car that can fit the whole family. Nissan tackled that challenge with a date (Although not as well as Tesla Model S, sorry folks) You can fit 5, 6ft tall guys in the vehicle and a trunk enough to fit 3 mid size travel luggage bags. The folding seats allow you to expand that storage and throw in a couple bycicles or sport equipment for park events.


OnePlus – Review

I have nothing but awesome experience with my OnePlus 5 phone. the Pros are the specs and the performance (beats any flagship today even iphone X looks like a joke), the Cons, missing the bells and whistles Samsung has such as Magnetic Payment (ability to pay on any credit card machine “patented tech”) and the Barometer (%99 of people don’t use that I use it to measure atmospheric pressure to anticipate headaches. (you can do that with internet-based service anyway)
But guys seriously. 8-core 2Ghz Processor, 1GB discreet GPU, 8GB DDR4L (L for low energy) RAM, 128GB NAND Flash memory <— I shit you not)…. for ~$550 USD??!!! Shutup and take my money!


I always say a mirror is a mirror. It can be very expensive but that doesn’t make it do what it shouldnt do…

OnePlus5 replacement screen is ordered online and swapping it is not hard (in comparison to the impossible iPhone X torture)

They already use latest Gorilla Corning Glass that exists in flagship phones. And comes pre-equiped with a screensheild just for that occasion too…

For people who are used to a phone being a Nokia 3310 (The Chuck Norris of phones) OnePlus ordered a few cases from Dupont Kevlar Karbon Fiber (5 times more powerful than steel and I think can even stop bullets!) That has raised edges to minimize damage of corner and edge drops (Gorilla Glass weakness points)

It costs a little bit more than your average phone case but the gift of Karbon Fiber that it can be so thin, light and strong together that I’m surprised Apple didn’t invest in them.

The Virtues of Continues Improvement

In a video called “Why You Need to Fail”, CD Baby founder Derek Sivers describes the surprising results of a ceramics class.

On the first day, the instructor announced to his class that the students would be divided into two groups. Half of the students would only need to make one clay pot each during the semester. Their grades would depend on the perfection of that solitary pot.

The other half of the class would be graded simply by the weight of the pots they made during the semester. If they made 50 pounds of pots or more, they’d get an A. Forty pounds would earn a B; 30 pounds, a C; and so on. What they actually made was irrelevant. The instructor said he wouldn’t even look at their pots. He would simply bring his bathroom scale to the final day of class and weigh the students’ work.

At the end of the semester, an interesting thing had occurred. Outside observers of the class noted that the highest-quality pots had been made by the “quantity group”. They had spent the entire semester working as quickly as they could to make pots. Sometimes they succeeded, and sometimes they failed. Which each iteration, each experiment, they learned. From that learning they became better able to achieve the end goal: making high-quality clay pots.

By contrast, the group that made one object didn’t have the benefit of those failed iterations and didn’t learn quickly enough to perform at the same level as the “Quantity group”. They had spent their semester theorizing about what would make a “grade-A” clay pot but didn’t have the experience to execute that grandiose vision.



NSFW – Scientifically backed up document on circumcission

This is the second in a series of informational essays by Marilyn Milos, RN, founder of the National Organization of Circumcision Information Resource Centers and a pioneer in the movement to end the forced circumcision of boys in the United States. Marilyn is also a member of Intact America’s Steering Committee. If you have a question you’d like Marilyn to address, send us an email!

Despite the popular myth that the foreskin (or prepuce) is “just a flap of skin,” it is actually a complex structure that plays a significant role in both penile protection and sensual/sexual enjoyment. Identified by Canadian anatomist Dr. John R. Taylor, the ridged band encircling the inner layer of the foreskin, has 12 to 14 ridges and tens of thousands of specialized erogenous nerves that let a man know what his penis is feeling and where he is in relation to the ejaculatory threshold. When the foreskin is retracted, the main part of the ridged band lies across the top and sides of the shaft of the penis.

Stretching of the accordion-like ridged band triggers important sexual reflexes and erogenous sensation. Without it, men complain of premature ejaculation because they lack nerves to tell the brain specifically what the penis is feeling. CJ Fallier wrote in 1970, “The fundamental biological sexual act becomes, for the circumcised male, simply a satisfaction of an urge and not the refined sensory experience it was meant to be.”

The ridged band is contiguous with the frenulum, a sensitive mucosal membrane on the underside of the penis that attaches the foreskin to the glans (head of the penis). After retraction, the penile frenulum pulls the foreskin back to its forward position, covering and protecting the glans penis and urinary meatus (opening). When a male has been circumcised, whatever remains of the frenular tissue becomes the most sensitive part of his penis.

Structurally, the penis is highly integrated and, according to Dr. Taylor, “The glans, foreskin, and skin of the penile shaft function as a single unit, not as a collection of separate parts with entirely different functions. The functions of the glans and foreskin are similar, and overlapping, but come fully into their own at different times during intercourse.”

—Marilyn Milos, RN

For more information about the foreskin, please download our Foreskin Facts information sheet and share it with your friends, doctors, and anyone you know who may have a baby on the way or is thinking about becoming a parent.

Solution: Lastpass does not work on Firefox ESR


After spending a couple days talking to Lastpass support 2nd tier. we rooted down to the issue that DebianOS has an outdated Firefox-ESR version within their latest distribution (8 Jessie)

Currently Lastpass does not work on the old Firefox ESR 45, Updating to Firefox ESR 52 resolves the issue but it’s a tricky manual update to do so,  here are the steps.


  • Download the latest ESR release from this directory:
  • Unpack the release
  • Copy the firefox folder contents to the following directories.
    • /usr/lib/firefox (Overwrite all)
    • /usr/lib/firefox-esr (Overwrite all)
  • Do the following in /usr/lib/firefox-esr
    • Delete firefox-esr
    • Copy firefox-bin to the same location and rename it to firefox-esr
  • Start Firefox ESR through the desktop shortcut.
  • Check About Firefox to confirm version change.


Note: to undo the changes above simply re-install Firefox-ESR through Aptitude or a package manager.

Write your comments below and let others know if this solution works or if you need any help!

Debian OS – Simple Backup


1. APT Packages list

dpkg --get-selections > package_list

This creates a text file (package_list) with all package installed in your system. You can edit the file if you want to delete some packages.
TIP: for Offline installations you can use APTonCD to back up the actual packages. (they can be outdated and won’t auto-update!)

2. Settings
REPO Sources
PPA Sources
Partition Mount Settings (Advanced)
Driver Exclusion Settings (Advanced)

3. Personal Data
Backup your home folder

Notice: All application settings are hidden folders/files in your user’s home folder, maybe you want to select what settings you want to restore.


1. Install your Debian OS

2. Restore repositories (/etc/apt/sources.list file and /etc/apt/sources.list.d/ folder).

3. Import your package list

apt-get update && sudo apt-get upgrade
dpkg –clear-selections
dpkg –set-selections < package_list

4. Install your selected packages

sudo apt-get update && sudo apt-get dselect-upgrade
sudo apt-get autoremove

Special thanks to original poster is Ilazgo as a comment:


Debian OS – beginner’s guide to Linux!

There is no doubt that if you want to use Linux and you’re new you should do so with Ubuntu, where you will get the maximum support and help in your first few steps.

this article addresses the bare DebianOS which requires some work to get it up and normally involves plenty tweaking but leads to a more stable experience down the road.


  1. Create EFI USB Flash Drive (I have a rare motherboard that only works with EFI (no switch)
    1. The best way to create a bootable USB hands-down is:
    2. Create a GPT table with FAT32 Partition  <– that’s for EFI (UEFI)
    3. Pick the DebianOS ISO here: (I’m using 8 (Jessie) for this article)
    4. Burn away!
  2. Boot into the USB (if you don’t know how to do that: check your motherboard company for Boot Menu instructions, you can set it in BIOS but remember to set the BIOS back to Boot-Drive first for speed+security)
  3. Pick the “Install x64 bit Graphical” and follow the instructions
  4. Pick your Space! If you want to co-install this I highly recommend having Linux setup on physically separate HDD. but the other way requires advanced skills
    1. Pick existing free space
    2. Use the “Guided partition” else you’ll have to create ext4 partition and swap partition (Linux gods will tell you SWAP partition should be the same size as your RAM)
    3. After the partitions are ready press “Next” and read carefully that it tells you what partitions it’s about to format, make sure the partitions it’s referring to are the ones you want


  1. Open Terminal
    1. type: “su” and enter password when prompted (elevates terminal to root (god mode)
    2. Enable Add-apt-repository:  (this is how you add PPA in debian)
      apt-get install software-properties-common


    3. Install graphics driver: (I’m using AMD RX 4xx series)
      1. this card requires you to update your Linux Kernel, do the following:


cd /tmp/




sudo dpkg -i *.deb
  1. Install AMDGPU OpenSource drivers (AKA Non-PRO) see why?.
    1. Open Synaptic, Search for “xserver-xorg-video-amdgpu” If unchecked -> mark for installation -> Apply marked changes.
  2. Improve your font! (Debian is not the easy path, it’s the hero’s path, you pick the changes you like, for me I love “Pretty”
    1. Create a file called .fonts.conf in your home directory, and put the following contents in it:
    2. <?xml version='1.0'?>
      <!DOCTYPE fontconfig SYSTEM 'fonts.dtd'>
       <match target="font">
        <edit mode="assign" name="rgba">
       <match target="font">
        <edit mode="assign" name="hinting">
       <match target="font">
        <edit mode="assign" name="hintstyle">
       <match target="font">
        <edit mode="assign" name="antialias">
        <match target="font">
          <edit mode="assign" name="lcdfilter">
    3. Restart XORG (logout and log back in)

Reference: Linix for cynics article


  1. Things to know in your journey in terminal:
  2. Being ROOT: su (Ubuntu uses: sudo -i)
  3. Edit Sources: nano /etc/apt/sources.list
  4. Update packages: apt-get update
  5. Installing from repo:  apt-get install [package name] [optional pack2] [optional pack3], etc.
  6. Installing from .deb:  dpkg -i [package full path]
  7. fixing broken packages: dpkg –congfigure -a && apt-get update
  8. Adding PPA Repository: add-apt-repository [ppa URL]

SecondLife – the post apocalyptic experience

Many of you who are familiar with the term SecondLife or who were fortunate enough to experience it during its creation up to its heyday 2003-2010. Will remember it as a fundamental peak of what is possible with the power of Internet…


Some children born into the age of the internet viewed it as more than pages behind URL links;  From that dream many things became possible such as Java plugins, JavaScript, web applications, and so on. But some dared to dream bigger, thought outside the box and wanted to replace the primitive structure the internet has on a fundamental level. That idea was about turning the Internet into a digital world, some of you would think I’m referring to a Digimon-like scenario… well not exactly… a one Philip Rosedale had a realistic vision but was limited by the technology of his time. he wanted it so bad he would soon dedicate his life and time to this far-fetched dream. And create a single greatest human invention since telecommunication itself.

What is SecondLife
Widely perceived as a communication platform or use it as a replacement of 3D chat, majority of its users would miss on the fact that everyone could use it the way they want. In fact its a realm of realms of which purpose you can create for yourself. Imagine a Web page that will allow your users to experience your products before buying them, drive that dream car, touch this new cool smartphone, walk into places impossible to reach for low-income people like the Eiffel tower and the White house, sure Google took it slow and created panoramic images. Now here where SecondLife breaks the barrier, you can JUMP from the Eiffel tower, you can host a meeting or a party in the White house! Or …wait for it….. you can build entire REAL cities and buildings and not from cheap buildings, oh no.. you can professionally design anything in-world or use your own professional CAD programs, and with LSL (SecondLife’s proprietary simplified JavaScript) scripting, there is almost nothing in real life that can’t exist in SecondLife.

The experience
In fact, you can have in SecondLife things you can’t have in real life. From basic things like flying solo to wearing iron suits or going naughty. As with the Internet itself unchecked SecondLife provided the ability for all humans to manifest all their dreams in a sense it was a simulation of our future thousands of years from now
Truth be told this technology was given to us at least 500 years before its time. And it was available to your regular PC.

SecondLife was quickly attracting the government, education facilities, businesses of all levels.
People created entire interactive worlds, lab simulations, art, model applications, flowers, celebrations, movie nights, dates, musical events, stand up comedy, physics calculations, mathematical programming experiments, international conference meetings, product simulations, strategy process development, imagine a Visio but 100 times more accurate and in 3D Where you can zoom in and out like you would with Google earth. And for the heavy powered simulations, Philip imagined how you would install the platform on a locally hosted server or fire it on an AWS elastic servers and then link it to the existing grid. (Lookup Hypergrid to see how users and fans made it happen later). Universities and businesses like IBM, CISCO, MICROSOFT, AMD, and more were all in love with it.

I wasn’t there for it, but from what I hear during 2007-2010 SecondLife was monetized as people could sell their products, its internal economy simulated the real world trade center running by multiple proprietary currencies made by programming but managed mainly by the Linden Dollar, which has an exchange stock market for converting it to and from US dollar. Yes, I’m not kidding Lindens are REAL MONEY and have their worth in US Dollars.
People created breedable pets, farms, AI integration with servers to embed C# and other computer languages, ironically just like the real world, the most profitable businesses started were Fashion (thanks to furries), Adult products, and real-estate. Yes, some people made millions, that is hundreds of thousands of dollars annually, and still do even today!

Doom and gloom
Every great invention faces the darkness of the greedy investors, SecondLife was no exception. As people saw what SecondLife is capable off they were aggressive to protect their investment and squeeze it for money, land prices went up, and Rosedale’s dream was crushed to ever see the day where it will be hosted on private servers.
With the rise of popularity, SecondLife was also attracted the infamous internet trolls and hackers.
No one had the experience with creating virtual reality antiviruses, so best bet was creating 3rd party viewers (think web browsers but for SecondLife grid) many viewers were great most famously BlackDragon for graphic miracles, Phoenix Firestorm for performance and stability, and Singularity for its compatibility with AMD. All that out did SecondLife basic viewer. But at the cost of lower security and privacy from their makers.

Hackers were able to create viewers to steal other people’s creations, ripping them out and reselling them or giving them away for free devaluing the product in the market, other viewers were eviler and could steal people’s IP addresses, financial information, identity theft and so on. SecondLife was emerging with great risks and greedy investors. The money could only be spent on where it seemed profitable and security was not a concern most American business concern themselves about. Unless shit hits the fan (excuse my French), and that is exactly what happened.

Shit hit the fan
Hackers and trolls could roam in a world with great potential and LindenLabs had not exactly experts in social science or Internet security. So they did the next best thing they knew they could without properly accounting for the consequences. At the time the most open and critical collaboration spot of SecondLife’s smartest hackers, scientists, developers, programmers and artists, gathered on an open policy campus of Woodbury University.
Where two significant groups played a role in good and evil. And the conflict went out of hand, it required the involvement of Federal Authorities. SecondLife decided to cut off the cancer. Therefore by physically (well virtual physics) wiped the entire University campus worth years of production and tens of thousands of dollars, and an invaluable amount of damages destroying student projects, institutional experiments, professors etc. Many accounts followed suit with their inventory destroyed that lead to loss of entire projects, while damaging other products that used nested codes or media content in a chain reaction. The damage was so severe and irreversible it blew a hole in the social structure of the world and displayed that Linden labs not only have the power but dare to use a nuclear option.

This quickly followed first life courts, legal claims, bad PR, and bad reputation, as one Woodbury University professor stated: “as long as technology like this belongs to one entity capable of such destruction at the push of a button, it will not be trustworthy or reliable to invest in”. One by one, universities and businesses stopped development into the world and didn’t renew their agreements with SecondLife, it was the beginning of the end. Several years later, second life began to decrease its office staff to conserve expenses it lost its market share. And blew up its chance to being acquired by Microsoft for a VR project.
It turned into a ghost town with remains of empty university buildings, you can still see AMDs once greatest digital tour and some schools.

Today second life is a spot for die-hard fans of the technology, SecondLife business, programmers, furries, and the occasional trolls (see Britbong).

Post Apocalyptical-time
ly real time user base decreased from its 150k ish population to 45k ish population, and became somewhat steady. SecondLife today is outliving its predictions of a dying nation since 2012, thankfully to its premium members, investors, land owners, and world creators. Its bringing a good profit that is so far considered acceptable.

Majority of today’s user base consists from disabled veterans, retired workers, physically or mentally disabled people with too much free time but little or no social lives. Even in its current state it serves as a great haven for those who need it, and some essential improvements are still rolling out.

Today’s communities
You can go anywhere in the world, speak any language, talk to any people, and if you’re elaborate enough start your own community! Many people i met host their own Role play simulators, hangout places, real estates, programs integration, fashion shops. Contrary to the belief in a dying world SecondLife hosts clubs and other chill spots great for a second time activity for people who want to chill and explore virtual reality like no other realm today and for free, the potential for today’s SecondLife World is to ground zero for international communications, a gold mine waiting to be discovered by people seeking to implement the technology wisely. be it SL or Kitely or another SL-Like Grid.

Be careful!
When going into the world do not use your personal information, do not setup your financial information using 3rd party viewers. (You can still use the Linden purchase function in 3rd party viewers)
Do not tolerate trolls and block them immediately for your own good as they attract more trolls when they stay around. Buy everything only from Marketplace or KZK, Kimono, and very famous stores, avoid shady places like Crowley Corporation and understand the risks of transactions in-world going wrong, and refunds being at discretion of seller. Linden police and reporting functions are no longer working (tragically sad) so you are on your own. There are also rumors of Linden staff banning accounts of users who leave their premium subscription, other accounts being banned for being at the wrong time, wrong place, read the current TOS carefully. Mainly the article that states all your creations can be gone anytime so have local backups whenever possible using export function Etc
Be safe!

The Future
Linden labs are trying their hand at creating a troll free professional grid that is so far hasn’t seen the light of day. meanwhile Mr Rosedale (Steve Jobs of virtual worlds) is starting over with his dream being done right with the proper technology and budget at his hands with HIGH FIDELITY.

Most successful advances in the technology are locally installed multi-grid solutions created by inspired developers who felt they had the responsibility to carry the torch, It’s called Hyper-Grid and it’s independent of Linden Labs.


Special thanks to
King Cervine (Deerwood)
Kylee the Kitty
Kurt Milnaoux
Irwin Aguilar
Cecilia Zhang (Intan Dance Animations)
Utilizator (Kimono) team
Silvya (KZK) team
Ru3ari and the Russian community
Kurt Augustin
Kitely Grid Staff
Jp lazlo (TRUMP HQ)
Many more creators and property owners I had the pleasure to meet in second life.

And especially…
Philip Rosedale.

SecondLife® is a registered trademark to Linden Research, Inc.